For This We have Prayed

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Our nest is growing.

You have been there for the last 4 years and 9 months.

You have fasted with us.

And you have prayed with us, and now we are asking you to keep praying.

This morning we got our double lines. The day I was supposed to start my cycle.  This means Baby Hoot is the size of a poppy seed and has only been growing for two weeks.

We are announcing now because we truly truly believe in the power of prayer.

Please pray for a healthy, uneventful, pregnancy.

I believe that all conception is life. If this pregnancy does not go full term, we will still be parents. I am able to conceive babies.  We will have people praying for us, and a support system in place.

Miscarriage is not shameful and I will not hide my pregnancy until it is “safe” to share.

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Mark 11:24

Checking in

First, we would like to thank every single person who has fasted and prayed for us. We truly believe that it is through prayers that miracles happen.

I am not going to lie, I had high hopes for our first cycle on Femara. When I started a new cycle I thought I would be devastated, but I wasn’t. I had this peaceful feeling, just knowing that I actually ovulated and had a normal cycle was calming.

A few other exciting things have been going on. The most exciting, Our Godson was born!!!

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He has been trying to make his grand entrances for a few months. And man did he make one. His moms labor was only an hour and half or so, which ended with little mans birth in the back of an ambulance.

The 2nd piece of news is that I have decided to open a home daycare. My amazing mother did this for the majority of my childhood. She was able to help provide for the family, while still being  at home with me and my brothers. She was even able to home school us while taking care of others little ones. As of right now, I am only going to do this until we leave this duty station. Our hope is to be completly debt free when we move.

And 3rd, we are starting a young adults ministry at our church. I am super excited and nervous for this.

God has made it soo clear that this is where we were meant to be. I was so sad to come back to east coast, but one thing after another has fallen into place.

His plan, His timing, His glory.

Day 00 prep

We are once again on a mission to complete 30 days of whole eating. Today I am prepping and tomorrow we are starting.

This time around I am not over thinking it. I was super stressed last time,so I’m going with the keep it simple stupid method.  Also this time around I know that the time line is true. For friends check out the link so you know when to avoid us. http://whole30.com/2013/08/revised-timeline/

Alright here is goes.

Reading Challenge

1401944_10152024038087664_2116626465_oMy mom recently asked me if I wanted to join her and one of her sisters for a reading challenge. I am all for reading!

 So I printed this list out from POPSUGAR and I’m off. I am starting from now but if you want to join us, you can count books you have read since the start of the new year. I am aiming for books I have never read (except the last one on the list). I will be adding the books to my bookshelf on Goodreads if you want to compare our books. Check it out here.

Happy Reading Everyone.

Will you fast with us?

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It has been placed on our hearts to fast for our little owlet. During the first week of my cycles until we get pregnant, Bubo and I will fast 1 meal a day. During the time we would typically be eating, we will be praying. I will also be fasting T.v. for this week. Because of my PCOS, I do not know the day my cycle will start. So if you wish to join us please let me know so I can let you know when to start. Please feel free to fast whatever God places on your heart to do so. It does not have to be food.

Follow up results and the next step.

Today was our follow up from out appointment in January. Sperm count is good and they all swim well. My uterine wall dose not have precancerous cells and my tubes are clear. I am not a carrier for cystic fibrosis. I have high lipids, cholesterol, and blood pressure and will be put on metformin in the hopes to get some of them in check. Everything pointed to my PCOS being the correct diagnosis.
I am in love with the clinic we are going to, everyone gives off a good vibes and no one has talked down to me.
We were given several options on how we could proceed. Since we will be here for a while, we are basically going to start from the beginning but with a different ovulation inducer named Letrozole (Femara). This time around, I will be monitored and we are starting low and working up in dosage ( on clomid they went straight to the highest dose). If that doesn’t work we move to injections and then iuis. If we are lucky, I could be pregnant next cycle, or it could take a while. We are putting our trust in Gods timing because he has a plan and knows what our future holds.

All or Nothing

Are you an all or nothing type person?

I’m starting to realize I am. I truly think it’s why I struggle in a lot of aspects of my life.I get so focused on one thing that nothing else matters.

It’s happened with diets, working out, photography, reading, trying to get pregnant, and numerous amounts of other things. It’s like my brain can only focus on one thing at a time.

I can make lists, set up routines, tell myself self that things will change. But they never do. Something catches my eye and I get so wrapped up in it. I am trying to be better.

For example this time around, instead of going cold turkey whole30, we are using up everything we have and just not buying it again. It’s helped us not get the carb flu, but it’s messing with my head. I have the whole mindset “we don’t eat this” but it’s still in my house until it’s gone.

So how do you deal with this? Are there any steps I can take? Or am I doomed to be an all or nothing person forever?

Catch the Moment.

Typically When you participate in a photo challenge like this, you start on the first of the year. But I am starting the day before my 23rd birthday. I have big goals this year and I want them all to be documented. Small, big, mundane, all of it.

I’ll start you off with this photo from our walk around Georgetown this morning, but from now on, I will do a weekly round up on Sundays. 20150103_4329

22

Warning this post is a little all over the place, its where I am in life right now.

I don’t know about you
But I’m feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don’t know about me
But I’ll bet you want to
Everything will be alright
If we just keep dancing like we’re
22, ooh-ooh
22, ooh-ooh

This song has been going through my head all week. In all honesty sometimes I am shocked that I’m only in my 20’s. I turn 23 in the next few days. 2 days after that we are going to see an infertility specialist. Yes at 23.

There is another line in the song that goes “We’re happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time”

Over the last few weeks of 22 I have not been very happy. It was our first holiday season with absolutely no family.  I will never ever do it again. With family around, the heartache is a little less. Without family, there is a void. No magic. There is a ton of time to just think. You see all the cute family activities going on…  Sure we are free to get up and go, but I want those adventures with littles. I have been nothing but confused and not necessarily lonely, but separate from most others reality. Everyone our age is in this stage of life, starting families. And it just seems so easy for them.

At 4 and a half years of marriage, 4 years of actively trying to conceive, and only being in my 20’s, I feel like I should be able to relate to that song more. But really, the song has never resinated with me. I’ve never felt 22.

Maybe I’ll actually feel 23, or make a point to feel it.